Romir Swar Week 10: Paint
They say the world is your canvas, but I’ve never been good at painting. So I replace the brush with a pencil, and write. And when I do, I feel free—like an eagle with its wings stretched out, soaring across a white sky, as opposed to a blue one.
I always wondered why I was born with an inclination towards writing.
Was it because I love talking, and writing is just voicing those inner thoughts into written words instead of spoken ones? Was it because I like the clarity it brings me; (watch this amazing APBIO reference im lwk hype) it’s as if feelings and emotion are simply chromatin before put into word form, as once written and able to be read, detailed and structured chromosomes manifest.
I’ve always viewed writing as an outlet of my mind. Outlets, however, work one way. Writing seems to channel in two directions, returning my input with an output of equilibrious value. Although arguably, the output is greater than the input, because writing to me is like a key to a treasure chest—a chest that I didn’t even know existed. It unlocks levels of my understanding that sleep in unconscious absence, spilling light and perspective, bringing them into conscious presence.
Writing is like a daydream except you’re awake and not dreaming. I feel like I can harness ultimate creative liberation and transcend into a world where seatbelts, helmets, and COLORBLINDESS (personal struggle, but we ball) have been prohibited.
In my notebook, I draw images of decadent waterfalls, prismed sunsets, and feelings that only exist once in words.
And so I paint—but with a pencil.
Hi Romir! I remember feeling intrigued when I first saw your original blog title, “Escribiendo.” AlthoughI don’t consider myself a good writer, I have also always had an inclination towards writing. I agree with your statement about how writing offers you clarity. I have been reflecting about this recently. I tend to express my feelings freely when I write, but then feel hesitant when it comes to being vulnerable in real life. Maybe it’s because I don’t have to see anyone’s face while writing; even if it eventually gets read by others, in the moment my writing is mine and mine only.
ReplyDeleteI enjoyed your interjections throughout the piece, it felt like you were talking and not some random ghost writer stuck in their basement. However, the AP Bio reference took me a while to understand even with the help of Oviya explaining it accompanied by a couple Google searches—thank goodness I’m not taking bio, although physics is not looking any better.
I liked the imagery you implemented by describing the imaginary painting. Also, I have this very distinct memory from fifth grade when we were trying to color in a picture and…well actually I’ll explain it to you in person, but it just came to mind when I read that paragraph where you mentioned being colorblind.
Lastly, why did you choose this image? I genuinely was so scared when I opened Blogger to that evil-looking smirk.
Your blog was very enjoyable to read with your metaphors and references. I found them very nice. Something I appreciate about your writing style, and something I’ve noticed when you converse as well, is that you add in niche references or as I like to call “ad-libs” which make talking to you very fun. I hope as you grow older and interact with more people you don’t lose that part of yourself.
ReplyDeleteWriting is so important, as we have learned very blatantly through this class, now more than ever. With a recent uprise in misinformation, censoring, and overall manipulation of details, having documentation of events is one of the most vital parts of society. I started writing again not necessarily with a purpose but just to clear my head and it has really helped me improve in different ways. Growing up I dreaded English as a whole but, slowly I’ve begun to fall back in love with it. As I continue to grow as a writer I hope that I find the artistry and inspiration that you gain from writing.
Also, you are the second person I know personally to be colorblind and I find that really cool.
Hi Romir! I relate to your blog deeply. Always a fan of art, I never brought myself to paint or draw with enough dedication to consider myself skilled at it. I wouldn’t say I’m skilled at writing either, but in writing I understand the purpose of art in its truest form: the sake of doing. When I write, I write to release. Whether it be to release frustrations, immortalize joy, reflect, or simply relax myself, I’m not always worried about the output.
ReplyDeleteBefore I tried keeping a diary, I never liked writing. I almost exclusively wrote for English classes, and what’s more, I wasn’t good at it—I wasn’t used to it. Unlike you, my affinity for writing is rather new, owed partially to this very assignment as well!
Your writing style is very descriptive. I believe I mentioned this in week 9’s blogs as well, but I love the way you use words and the abundance of descriptive language. Even in a short blog, you’re able to pack so much detail and encapsulate so well the beauty of writing. I sometimes struggle with making my blogs too long, so I admire the reminder that I don’t need a thousand words to make a powerful text.
Hi Romir! I love how your blogs blend beautiful vocabulary and imagery with modern quippy slang; it's very refreshing!
ReplyDeleteAlthough I’m not innately skilled at writing, I do find much joy in talking aloud to myself (guys I swear I’m not crazy), usually explaining various concepts as if I was a science teacher or a YouTube video essay narrator—something I find similar to how you express your attraction to writing. I don’t record my mindless rants, but I find that after I’ve explained it to the nitrogen and oxygen gas molecules around me I form a better understanding of the material and am better fitted to explain it to others, which parallels how you describe writing to you as a “channel in two directions.” Perhaps, after reading your blog, I should be recording them—much of my oration is made up on the fly, and I think I would benefit more (from laughter, at the very least) if I were able to listen to my rants with fresh ears.
I’ve always wondered why that pirate guy has such a long nose…also did you choose it because you mentioned “treasure chest” or vice versa?